108. Love, Come Back

Lyric

Beautiful Girls
Singer: Sean Kingston

Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart

'Cause we both thought
That love last forever (last forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung

Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

See it's very divine, girl
You're one of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You ought to get declined
Oh Lord
My baby is driving me crazy

It was back in '99
Watching movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doing my first crime

And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South

Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

See it's very divine, girl
You're one of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You ought to get declined
Oh Lord
My baby is driving me crazy

Now we are fussing
And now we are fighting
Please tell me why
I am feeling slighted

And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're dating other guys
You're telling me lies

Oh I can't believe
What I'm seeing with my eyes
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal, suicidal

This is what I fear about love. I know, I am too smart, too beautiful, too kind, too rich, too good for you, but you have to feel how I feel.

I haven't felt your love yet, you haven't tried being with me yet, then you left me before there's us. I know love can be cruel and I regret that that cruelty has to come from you.

You didn't think that I may be too valuable to miss... That's what I regretted the most about you.

See also: Succumb to Lust, Then to Love Please Make Me Happy Forget The World, Let's Blush Together! Yes, We're Too Cute To Be True

Song Recommendation:

• Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girls

107. Does Passion Solve Everything?

Synopsis

Agnes, taken for granted as a suburban mother, discovers a passion for solving jigsaw puzzles which unexpectedly draws her into a new world - where her life unfolds in ways she could never have imagined.

Genres	Drama
Director	Marc Turtletaub
Starring	Kelly Macdonald, Irrfan Khan, David Denman

Life is boring.
You need to wash the dishes, you need to shower, you need to clean your room, you need to brush your teeth (twice a day), you need to wake up in the morning, you need to study, you need to work, you need to socialise...

What if I don't wash the dishes, I'll just use the same plate over and over again, it's going to get dirty again anyway, why bother cleaning it? What if I don't shower and brush my teeth, I'm going to sweat and sticky again anyway, why bother cleaning myself? What if I don't wake up in the morning, I choose to sleep till the next afternoon and dream my way to old age, won't it be a good life because I can do whatever I want even though it's in my dream?

Sometimes I wonder, if reincarnation concept is true, with all new born babies, with all the population growth, what or who were they before they were born in this world? Are they an animal, a rock? a human too (that's nice), an angel (even better), a fairy, or the daughter of God (I mean, considering previously it was the son of God)?

Well, I guess our brain was forced to shut down (because of sickness and the body gets weaker, or any other causes), so the brain couldn't save our memories to a save state, so we lose everything and start afresh when we're born again (the brain or soul activates again).

If only I knew my life before this one, I could maybe figure out what I'd done wrong in the previous life, and what I should do in this life that makes everything better for everyone.

See also: Who Am I, God? The Process of Dying Dusty

Movie Recommendation:

• Puzzle (2018)

106. BOOK RECOMMENDATION: Thirteen Reasons Why

Synopsis

THE #1 NEW YORK TIMES AND INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER

**THE BOOK THAT STARTED IT ALL, NOW A NETFLIX ORIGINAL SERIES**

“Eerie, beautiful, and devastating.” —Chicago Tribune

“A stealthy hit with staying power. . . . thriller-like pacing.” —The New York Times

“Thirteen Reasons Why will leave you with chills long after you have finished reading.” —Amber Gibson, NPR’s “All Things Considered”

You can’t stop the future.
You can’t rewind the past.
The only way to learn the secret . . . is to press play.

Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a strange package with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers several cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker—his classmate and crush—who committed suicide two weeks earlier. Hannah's voice tells him that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out why.

Clay spends the night crisscrossing his town with Hannah as his guide. He becomes a firsthand witness to Hannah's pain, and as he follows Hannah’s recorded words throughout his town, what he discovers changes his life forever.

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I don't know about you but I sometimes think about killing myself. I always think that being dead solves all problems. Why haven't I killed myself?

Well, I'm on a journey to find things I would do to myself that kills painlessly. I want definite result too. I don't want people resurrecting me again like I'm some Frankenstein. I need a quick death, so nobody can save me again.

I'm too afraid of dying, then waking up again handicapped. That's so silly and worthless. Everybody would be too afraid to let me go alone, so they'll strangle me in bed so I won't do anything that might harm myself. I don't think I can live that way.

Then I realised that if I die, a lot of people are gonna miss me, they will have to go through the trouble of cremating me, and nobody's gonna replace me in this whole world. It's such a shame to lose someone like me, I'm too interesting.

Why would I have to wake up every morning? Because the morning sun needs me to wake up. Nothing is colourful when I wasn't around. It will be black all over the place, right?

Of course it's black.
I'm sleeping.
How can it be colourful?

See also: I Don't Wanna Help You Sacrifice Them All If You Find A Good Way to Hide, Don't Forget to Share, PRETTY PLEASE

Book Recommendation:

• Jay Asher - Thirteen Reasons Why

105. Rapper Categories

Rapper's role in music:

Title : The Most Unusual Wind (Original title: 最炫民族风) Singer : Phoenix Legend (凤凰传奇) Rapper's role : To emphasise what matters in the song Haizz... Enough don't shout like that! Careful, You're spitting all over the place!
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Title : Sweet Talk Singer : Sheryl Sheinafia & Rizky Febian Feat. Chandra Liow Rapper's role : To say what's not in the song
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Title : You Are (Original title: Kau Adalah) Singer : Isyana Sarasvati (feat. Rayi Putra) Rapper's role : To support the singer, praise the singer if needed
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Title : Mockingbird Singer : Eminem Rapper's role : To just share his (or other's) life stories, send message to his kid, saying sorry and stuff
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Title : Crazy World (Original title: Dunia Gila) Singer : Yin Yang Rapper's role : To lead the song Yea... I guess you nailed it good...

See also: Jason, Why? Thank You Google #1 - Feeling Beautiful

Song Recommendation:

• Phoenix Legend - The Most Unusual Wind
• Sheryl Sheinafia & Rizky Febian Feat. Chandra Liow - Sweet Talk
• Isyana Sarasvati (feat. Rayi Putra) - Kau Adalah
• Eminem - Mockingbird
• Yin Yang - Dunia Gila